I want to die.....she changed overnight....doesn't love me anymore.....wants to get drunk and high with other men

Me (M22) and her (F20) have been together for 3 years....it was the sweetest relationship ever and she became my life...we decided not to really have friends (a mistake probably but it was a mutual decision and we were happy about it)....before she met me she partied, got very drunk and had mostly guy friends (because her and her mum get along with men better...)...but she gave up everything when she met me...alcohol....smoking....and I opened her eyes to her guy friends just wanting her for her body.....I didn't drink....I didn't smoke....I didn't have female friends....she would get scared and beg me not to......

So we were very happy....her family became my family....her home became my home and vice versa....for 3 years we were insanely in love and had future plans together (kids, a house), we started working to save up money for a house....

I WASN'T the best sometimes and she wanst either, we DID argue and have problems but always overcame them together and were happier than ever before...

Everything changed overnight....one day she just disappeared with a friend (f) and went to a bar....she was gone for hours and I didn't hear from her...and when she did finally talk to me late at night, I wasn't happy and she didn't care how I felt.....she then asked for space and didn't want anything to do with me

After a week we spoke....and I said I would do ANYTHING to make it work....she wanted to have loads of friends, she wanted to get drunk and high and do all of this stuff that she said she HATED

I agreed and agreed....but then she said she wanted it to be with men.....she wants to go out with groups of MEN and get drunk and high with the....them take her home.....her go out with them all the time....she said she's not interested in anyone else and never will....but that's just not ok....the amount of paranoia I'd have....and if she ever DID cheat....I would NEVER know or find out.....just as I'm writing this I want to cry just imagining this....my beloved being with men and then she just sleeps with one of them...God I want to just end it right now...but I'm trying so hard....

and that is NOT right....even tho I was in massive pain I still agreed but she said she's not sure is she wants to try again and she admits that she's fallen out of love....

I ENCOURAGED her to meet some friends, I didn't keep her in a box....and it started to work...but she never wanted to go out with men before...

I don't know who she is anymore....the sweet sweet girl that I loved and loved me was gone....overnight.....

I have noone....just 1 friend but he's busy often....I'm afraid of social interaction now and I just want my sweet girl back......but I know that she will be out getting drunk and high with other men....she won't want me back....and even if she does I won't be able to trust her....I'll probably cry every moment and genuinely want to die because I don't know what she's doing or if she's cheating on me....she says she would never do it....but she doesn't love me anymore so why wouldn't she.... She even said that we shouldn't even be in a relationship....maybe just casual dating...

I want to scream in agony, how did this sweet girl just dissappear....how does she just NOT love me anymore...even when days before we were so so happy....

I'm sorry for the long post....if I'm honest I don't even care If someone reads it....I'm just in alot of pain....I did so much for her ...and loved her with everything...and now she's a different person....and I'm completely alone wanting to honestly kill myself....every little joy in my life has been extinguished...I barely eat...and try not to stalk her on social media but I still do....everything around me is her...stuff she's made me...pictures...Teddy bears....little trinkets....every photo I have is of her....clothes that's she's gotten me....sweet letters that she wrote me...drawings....tv shows...songs....everything

I'll probably try to go on antidepressants and try to get myself together.....but I will hurt for a long time....and honestly will never love another woman like her again.....maybe I will kill myself....I'll try my best reddit....but its so...so....hard

TLDR: loving girlfriends of 3 years switches up overnight and doesn't love me anymore, wants to get drunk and high with men.

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Mental Health Conversations | Understanding attachment styles in relationships - New Era

Mental Health Conversations | Understanding attachment styles in relationships  New Era

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Finally moving out of my bfs house! help?

I already know this should go elsewhere, however I don't have enough karma to post so here goes nothing... I finally made the decision to move out of this very toxic household. I have separated with my boyfriend, now trying to make it on my own. He is gone today and I need to rent a truck to finish moving my things out. However, I'm short about $70. If anyone can help, you have no idea how much that would mean to me. I've been in this relationship for 9 years and I'm finally doing what should've been done a long time ago. Anything will help. Thank you!🤞 $kjay848

tl;dr moving on from a abusive relationship and need a little help.

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Mixed signals/ Need advice

So I met this girl very naturally and instantly was very attracted with her. We started hanging out a bit mainly just as friends, and flirted a little, but I m(20) had just gotten out of a relationship, and deal with sexual anxiety but did not go much further. About a month ago she sent me a text asking how I felt about her and how she was confused and felt slightly rejected because I had not made any moves. I had expressed that I liked her, and she had expressed that she had always liked me too. Fast foward a few weeks we went to a part and made out heavily, and would have had sex but something came up preventing that. Anyway since then we have continued to snapchat and talk via phone, and have hungout a few times, but i am unsure how to proceed. She has mentioned being afraid to lose our friendship if we continue to go foward, and this prevents me from wanting to advance on her further, but then at times she will come on to me, or put my hand somewhere on her body. Lastly when I am with her I notice she snapchats alot of other guys and what not. Anyway feel free to ask any clarifying questions. Do I have a brutally honest convo with her? Do i continue to not be definitive with my intentions until she is? Do I just tell her how I feel? In person, or over snapchat/text? Help me

Tldr: Ive been getting mixed signals from a girl I really like, and dont know what to do.

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Why am I [M20] craving validation from my ex [F19]?

My ex and I broke up mutually after seeing that being together was terrible for us. The relationship was getting in the way of our lives and happiness.

I would say I am romantically over this person. I know this person is terrible for me and I don't want to get back with her. I wouldn't feel anything if she was with another man.

I still somehow want this person to be happy. Despite her treating me poorly, I know she's just projecting her trauma and insecurities. She has a lot of issues she needs to fix. I don't completely blame her. We just weren't ready to be in a relationship. I know she's not a terrible person either. She's very caring towards her friends. Just not someone I would want to get involved romantically.

I wanted nothing more than to end things with happiness. To look back at the relationship and smile. Maybe even laugh about it. Nobody did anything morally wrong, we didn't cuss or yell. We weren't mean. But my ex is seeing things with so much negativity. She's going out of her way to humiliate me and spread rumors about me. I was so shocked (because mostly this was behind my back) so I asked her about it. She is refusing to give me an answer.

While I am over ex, I am not over the fact that my ex hates me. It makes it feel like all the time spent was wasted. It makes it feel like everything was fake. I don't want to get back together with my ex, but I want her to at least acknowledge the amount of effort I put in and respect me for what I did. It's the fact that I still strongly care about someone who went out of their way to hate me. It's beyond humiliating.

TLDR:

I'm over my ex, but not over the fact that someone who cared about me now hates me.

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My husband’s constant complaining about not having a career and “pursuing his dream” is driving me insane.

My husband’s constant complaining about not having a career and “pursuing his dream” is driving me insane.

My husband (33) and I (30) have been married for seven years and have two beautiful children together, and living what many would consider the American dream. We aren’t rich but with both of our incomes combined we make a comfortable living. Since before we got married my husband always wanted to pursue a career in Aviation, and becoming a commercial pilot has always been his lifelong passion and something he’s dreamt of doing since he was a child.

He completed a two year program and earned his Associate’s degree in Aviation but due to some roadblocks along the way with getting his private pilots license due to a medical condition that required clearance he was not able to obtain his private pilot’s license and pursue his career path. He was finally able to get clearance however all of his tests expired and things got put on the back burner as a result. We met and married a year after he finished school. He now has an associates degree in aviation that cost us 15k worth of student loan debt (paid off) and there is nothing to show for it. We also paid off my student loans in the process another 15k.

Since that time he has worked what he would consider dead end jobs, jumping from one job to the next. He’s initially happy when he first gets a new job but within six months to a year he falls into the same pattern of burn out and depression. Complaints about how his life isn’t going anywhere, that’s he’s depressed, that I do nothing to help him pursue his dreams that I don’t support him, how he wishes he could just start over. He’s always looking for someone to blame and it’s usually me. Then he begins the job search all over again for what he would consider another “dead end” job. After seven years of this constant cycle it has really began to weigh heavily on me. I’m now at a point that when he starts the complaints and job searches that I just ignore him because I’m so mentally exhausted, and I know nothing I say will make a difference.

I love my husband so much, he’s an amazing husband and father and I would give anything to see him happy, and pursuing his dreams. I wish love and support was all that were necessary and if that were the case we would have been there by now, but money is a huge factor. Becoming a commercial pilot is an extremely expensive and time consuming endeavor 80-100k minimum just to obtain the license itself and not including the 1500 hours that is required after that to even get hired anywhere. I’ve tried to get my husband to pursue getting a more “affordable” degree or to take on a trade just so he can have a solid and stable career with benefits and job satisfaction just as a stepping stone to fund his flying in the process. However, he never sees anything through, and he never likes the options I give him, and the things he has pursued never work out. He wants to snap his fingers and watch everything magically fall in his lap. But the hard truth is the career he has chosen to pursue will take him years to complete unless we get ourselves in a bunch of debt just so he can get it done quickly.

I know he’s never going to be happy until he is doing what he wants to do and this will continue to weigh heavily on our marriage. Some people are content just having a job to pay the bills and make a comfortable living, he will never be that person. I feel like he’s always going to be like the highschool quarterback who would have made it to the NFL if it wasn’t for an injury that held them back and I’ll never hear the end of it. He knows how I feel, we do well with communication in our marriage. I’m just so tired of repeating myself like a broken record that I’ve resorted to silence with him.

We only get two days off together every two weeks due to our schedules and he’s ruined our weekend off together because he’s been sulking about his job and lack of career.

TDLR: I’m just frustrated and needed somewhere to vent my thoughts. Thank you for listening.

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My father [M63] wants to be closer to me. But his emotional side triggers my avoidance. I [M18] feel really bad because I care about him. How can I fix this?

I am so grateful that I have people in my life that care about me. I'm very close with my mother, my friends, and I have a pretty secure attachment style. I love building intimacy with others.

But this doesn't apply to my father. His feminine, emotional side just weirds me out in a way. I feel terribly sorry because I know he cares about me but it's not really a father figure that I am looking for.

I find it extremely hard to open up to him. I can't ever show him my emotions and when he does show his and reaches out it's feels suffocating and I need space.

Again, I don't know why because I'm usually never avoidant with anyone else. He's made so many sacrifices for my education and I am so grateful for that. And I know there are many people who would want a father like mine. It's my last year home before I move to college so I want to make my relationship with my father better.

TLDR:

Basically the title.

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